The below post has been mulling around in my head for weeks. I have had a pretty bad attitude the past couple of weeks. Totally sulking and feeling sorry for myself! My plans are not working out quite as I would want them too. To be fair, I have been heading in this direction for a couple of weeks, perhaps deceiving myself into believing, it is all still attainable.
Justifying my feelings…
I wrote a blog post about the next step in my career goals towards becoming a registered psychometrist. Turns out, after a lengthy discussion with the industrial psychologist that offered to supervise my practicum, the practicum is not worth all the efforts.
- The cost of the actual course is outrageous
- The fact that it is only offered as a full-time course, means I would need to request a sabbatical at work.
- Lastly, because I won’t be able to complete the practicum at work, it really doesn’t justify all the effort I have gone to, to put a grant proposal together in order to convince my employers that the course will make it worth their while.
I have literally tried every avenue to make the practicum a reality. I’ve considered what I will do if I get the approval of my employers. Furthermore, I’ve weighed up the sacrifices I will need to make, with the likelihood of success.
Success being the likelihood, that I will be able to run a sustainable practice after my registration. And how quickly I will be able to resign from my current employer to start the practice.
All in all, the sacrifices are too many.
As much as everything in me wants to refuse to accept no for an answer, the words of the psychologist echo in my head and has become the facts I’ve been too afraid to voice myself.
Closing Date for Applications
Friday was the closing date to submit my application for the BPsych Equivalence Programme in hope to become a registered psychometrist.
I didn’t submit my application.
I have considered what I would feel if I were accepted. Walking away will be harder if I am accepted than it is now, that I didn’t apply for the course.
I’ve also considered the knowledge gained and the type of information I will be able to share if I write the entrance exam. At this very moment, the effort, the preparations, time off work, travel to- and from the university, isn’t worth it.
I am happy with the decision I made. I am content with the fact that I didn’t apply for the bpsych equivalence programme, I am just a rebel by nature.
Now I re-evaluate. I need to consider my options as they are right now. After the lengthy chats, with a couple of key mentors and friends, it is clear, OD isn’t a sustainable option in itself. Applying for my masters is probably the best option right now for a medium term goal. The other option is to upskill myself as a certified business analyst.
More on my research and thoughts soon!
Personal Pep-talk and End Notes
The BPsych Equivalence Programme isn’t and wasn’t the ultimate aim. It was a stepping stone, a stepping stone that isn’t a viable option. The ultimate aim is to find sustainable employment that gives me flexibility, work-life balance and job satisfaction.