Confession! It's Time to Walk the Talk » The Curious Wildflower

Happy Human Rights Day for yesterday! It’s crazy to think my last blog post was published on 29 January 2019!

This to me is a clear indication that I haven’t been practising what I preach! It’s time to get back to basics and walk the talk!

2019 has had me all over the place! Mostly in a good way! But the thought that we’re only three months into the year has me a little overwhelmed!

Work has been over the top. It’s been go-go-go, with no rest for the wicked. The whole office environment has been a bit strategic in nature – which is generally something I excel at! But somehow in the last week – strategy has turned into nasty office politics. I eventually, on Tuesday, realised with crystal clarity – that it was time to lay down all defences and quit while I am ahead.

Make it a Long Weekend!

Human Rights day, has come at exactly the right time. I’ll be on the road again on Sunday – for work – so, taking today off, and making the best of a situation by making it a long weekend is exactly what I need.

Confessions, flowers and walking the talk

With the days leading up to today, I’ve realised a couple of things!

1. I haven’t been Walking the Talk

I haven’t been walking. Full stop. But seriously, I haven’t had much work-life-balance at all the past couple of months. I’ve been working myself to the bone, sleeping over weekends and haven’t stopped to enjoy the finer things in life!

I’m at a really good place at work. It warrants the extra hours! It really does. However, what I choose to do now, will set the stage for the next couple of months (perhaps even years). So I need to choose wisely. I need to work smart, play smart and maximise on the things that are important to me!

That means quality time with Al, the boys, my relationship with Christ and being the best version of me.

2. Askewed Priorities

I love the way God works with me. I have this brilliant revelation. Prioritise your Life! Naturally, I don’t really apply it myself, and then I find myself in a situation where I have cake on my face!

I really appreciate these revelations, I embrace being humbled. I love that I have a Father that is gentle, there really are no, “I told you so’s.” There’s grace and mercy and the ability to review, retrack and refocus.

3. The Recurring Whale Theme

In March 2016 I spent a great deal of time, in the book of Jona.

In last year, I was stuck when my divorce took a crazy turn. I found myself in a place where every ‘plan’ I made could potentially lead me (and Oli) down a path, we really didn’t want to go. And I was forced to face the music, sit in the whale’s belly and allow God to be God.

I knew He had a plan, at that particular time, I was just very concerned that I would not like the initial steps the plan entailed.

I pushed myself from pillar to post, constantly in two minds as to which plan was better. My plan or God’s?

It sounds extremely arrogant to choose my plan over His. But I can’t emphasise how often we unknowingly chose our own plans, over His.

Naturally, the whale has returned. Which leaves me in a place where I need to surrender.